Barbara Bush revealed how she fell into a deep depression and considered suicide

Former First Lady and family matriarch Barbara Bush was once described as ‘a silver-haired pearl draped howitzer’.

But a combination of blows in her life in the mid-seventies sent her spiraling into a depression that almost led to her taking her own life.

Among the causes of her despair was a woman who would stay by her husband George’s side for more than 12 years.

Her name was Jennifer Fitzgerald and she was his aide ā€“ and according to some, his mistress, reveals Susan Page, author of The Matriarch: Barbara Bush and the Making of an American Dynasty out next Tuesday.

Returning from a post in Beijing, China as chief of the US Liaison Office under President Gerald Ford, Barbara recalled the dizzying year as the best of times.

But it quickly evolved into the worst.

When Bush was assigned to head the embattled CIA in 1975, Barbara ‘fell into darkness’.

‘Barbara Bush found herself falling into the worst personal crisis she had faced since daughter Robin had died more than two decades earlier,’ writes Page. ‘Overwhelmed by pain and loneliness, she contemplated suicide.

‘She would pull over to the side of the road until the impulse to plow into a tree or drive into the path of an oncoming car had passed’.

‘I felt terrible. I would pull over and park so I wouldn’t go hit a tree’, Barbara confessed to author Susan Page before her death.

‘I really wasn’t brave enough to do that, but that’s why I pulled over, so I wouldn’t do that, or I wouldn’t run into another car’.
George held his weeping wife in his arms every night, while she tried to explain her feelings.

‘I almost wonder why he didn’t leave me’, Barbara confessed to the author.

She was able to hide her depression from other family members and friends ā€“ but not George who encouraged her to get professional help.

When the crisis passed, Barbara theorized her depression was ‘a toxic combination of factors’.

With George’s new position at the CIA, it was the first time since his early days as chairman of the Harris County Republican Committee in Houston that he couldn’t share with Barbara what he was doing. His job at the CIA was top secret.

‘The truth is, I can’t keep a secret’, Barbara told the author in many conversations they had before Barbara’s death in April of 2018.

‘You tell me a secret, I’ll keep it for about a day, maybe a day and a half’.

Barbara considered that with the onset of menopause, a hormonal imbalance might have set her off emotionally.

Or the empty nest at home with her children away at boarding schools or in new careers left her feeling inadequate to bring on such darkness.

But others who were close to Barbara speculated that there was an unmentioned reason that contributed to her grief and suicidal depression ā€“ Jennifer Fitzgerald.
Fitzgerald, small and blond, was seven years younger than Barbara.

She was divorced and very protective of George while being ‘prickly to others’.

Speaking on the condition of anonymity, a member of Bush’s inner circle told Page that when Bush was first introduced to Fitzgerald by Dean Burch in the 1970s, he ‘was simply captivated’.

‘Just seven years younger than Barbara and not a striking beauty, she was flirty and solicitous and focused completely on him.

‘Their surreptitious romance would last for more than a dozen years, inexplicable to those around him and impossible for anyone to manage’, writes the author.

Their flirtation supposedly began in 1973 when Bush was Chairman of the Republican National Committee.

A woman sharing a beach house in Ocean City, Maryland, with Fitzgerald, remembered Bush calling the house a least once a day during the summer of 1973.

‘Her giggly manner and their whispered conversations made it so clear that the calls were personal’, writes the author.

Bush didn’t even bother to use a phony name.

He initially hired her as his assistant when he accepted the post in China in 1974.

The move reportedly led Barbara to leave Beijing for the U.S. for a short period of time after learning that Fitzgerald was hired.

She hitched a ride home with Secretary of State Henry Kissinger who had been making a diplomatic visit with his family.

Although Barbara would claim the trip had been planned for months, George’s mother came to stay for three weeks.

Finally, Barbara returned back to China until January 1975 – marking the first Christmas the couple had ever spent apart and the longest time they went without seeing each other during their marriage.

During the 1980 campaign when Bush was nominated for Vice President and working out of his Houston headquarters, his suspicious campaign manager and best friend Jim Baker gave Bush an ultimatum to decide between him and Jennifer.

Bush took a day to mull it over, much to Baker’s shock, but eventually moved Fitzgerald to a fundraising position in New York.

When Bush was elected Vice President, he brought her along to Washington and she sat outside his office door in the White House as his gatekeeper.

Rumors about Bush and other women had circulated in Washington for years, with a bizarre allegation in 1981 that Bush had been shot leaving the Capitol Hill home of a woman in the early morning hours, but it was never substantiated.

The Washington Post covered it anyway in a front-page story.

But the whispers about Fitzgerald never ceased.

Respected White House correspondent, Ann Devroy wrote a story for Gannet News Service headlined ‘The Power Behind Bush’ illuminating Fitzgerald’s ‘almost unlimited influence’ with Bush.

Devroy wrote about when key campaign staffer Rich Bond confronted Bush and declaring he just couldn’t work with Fitzgerald anymore. He soon got the boot.

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